Your loved ones as opponents

Now I can tell you how I feel, to have my loved ones as my opponents.

I cannot strike back! You see, I now cannot complain or tell my story to my friends. That will give rise to a situation where my friends will view my children negatively. Their criticisms on my children also hurt! I think my children mind very much people's perception towards them. Their actions of distancing themselves from me will be considered not filial and that is also caused by me! So I am responsible for their attitudes towards me.

I can only tell my story here in my blog and hope nobody is paying too much attention to it though I know this is public domain! But I really have very limited choice. At times I feel suffocated, alone thinking of my predicament.